Melanoma

LA LA LA LA LA...
Life goes on melodically
Daily goods and bads but all do-able, do be do be do-able
Shower, towel off, inspect
Hmm what's that mark?  New? NEW?!
Look LOOK inspect dissect magnify illuminate
Pancic
Note it log it date it WAIT
MELODY STOPS .
Ever thinking of, looking at, worrying about, wondering if
2 weeks a lifetime
Hmm better call an expert
No worries OR we better biopsy
Floor drops out from under,  room is suddenly just a little smaller
WAIT!
Phone rings.  Hello this is Dr Dermatologist's office
Pause - - - - - - - - -
The biopsy came back, it is melanoma
Fades to black.  WHAT STAGE! what stage? What stage is IT?
and so it goes

Lu'
6-08-2016

BITCH

BITCH
B-ottle cap ready to blow
I-nching toward the abyss
T-aking it's toll
C-an't can't can't
H-anging on by a thread or so it seems
BITCH, maybe it's not as simple as that!

Lu'
9-4-2014

Life lost

Sad for a life lost yet never really had
Yet better still!
Longing so desperately needing
Sad cry crying stares into the distance
Pins and needles hammer to fall
Sound saddens balancing precipice
God hear me heal him hear me
Hours lengthen hasten time not
Calendar days one then next
Time to tell a story none yet fleshed
Sad for a life lost yet never really had
Yet better still!
Lu
5/25/2014

Tommy 's struggle

Sung to the tune of Blue eyes cryin' in the rain

In my mind I see him always
Brown eyes searching through the pain
When he moans I feel so helpless
Hands tied ever and again

Fighting daily is his battle
Desperate trying to regain
Motions we all take for granted
Brown eyes searching through the pain

Hopeful someday rounds the corner
Hand in hand we walk away
Scars unseen run deep remaining
Brown eyes searching through the pain
Lu'
5/22/2014

Empathy

April 2014, ‘twas not keen not keen

Empathize schmempathize does it matter DOES IT

Blessing or bother which are you eh?

Are you just an ass?  Imposing? Iinterloping?

Empathize schmempathize does it matter DOES IT

Is it just the mean man, mean man, mean man; mouse

Kindness toward strangers, gentleness follows; pain disavows

Taking me for granted; take me for granite

Loves me! Likes me; wonders or tolerates best

Projecting not protecting needed still

Distance, shell beckons; slip back, fall back, sink

Empathize schmempathize does it matter DOES IT

Question it.  Thank you seldom follows

 

Lu’

4-22-2014

 

 

He wrote a song

...he wrote a song don't you know
A song titled Afterglow
He wrote a song don't you know
The man known as Bondo
He wrote a song don't you know
Kinda folksy and mellow
He wrote a song don't you know
Heck I'm proud of the fellow
He wrote a song don't you know
That Bondo, my Bro'
He wrote a song don't you know
I smile in the afterglow of a song titled Afterglow
He wrote a song don't you know...

Lu' 07/02/13

Isabelle gone

Deepest sorrow for our beloved pet, friend; kid!
Deep  Simple  True
Not lost, passed; past.
Gut wrenching  tear spilling
Words failed   Float  Jumble and fade
Died at my word  IN my hands  Eyes to eyes.
Final strokes on fur, goodbye, My duty!
No hunger No thirst No discomfort
No hugs, No petting, No "here kitty kitty"
Darkenss and not...
Gut calms  Tears dry but poised
Thoughts form, solidify
Sympathy spoken  Gut tightens, tears glisten.
Easier?  Yes; and no.

Lu'
06/09/13

Checking out

blue eyes clouded, eyes not closed what do they see
body pulling to fetal
communication lost, attempted, reaching but lost still
shutting down, checking out
tethered to this earthly plain; why
holding tight to times past, life lived, ones loved
faith hope comfort true
pastor's voice a smile appears
all is good here, the way is clear go to her, to them, to Him
a stroke of our hand a kiss a word, love spoken
home not home going home gone
goodbye harry... the morning of May 21st 2013

Lu'
05/16/13

Interrupted

Speaking with enthusiasm
Joining in, taking part
Really NOT a part
A man's world
Speaking with enthusiasm, interrupted
Spoken over as if not there; NOT HERE
No questioning what was spoken
No apology needed
A man's world
Clam up, shut up; retreat
Things to say, things to contribute
Talk to yourself, good company
INTERRUPTED
This woman in a man's world

Lu'
04/30/13

April 2013 began thusly

Bad things happened; fuckers! 
Not as far away as Boston nor as bad, yet farther still; momentous. 
Shattering contentment, rocking stability; fuckers!
Pooled blood to cheeks, distress distress; longing.
Dark, clothed, uncertain, nary slept; fuckers!
Bump in the night bump bump yet daylight intrude
Guard against the possible, guard against, guard.
Fear the possible, the ever present possibility.
Look at the faces, who's face; who!
Time marches on.
Time does heal.
Reel back, recollect, move on; fuckers!

Lu'
04/18/13

When Old walks

When Old walks it does so bent
No wonder where Old's posture went
Away with youth, now in old age
Old walks with a wheeled metal cage
Tennis balls adorn it's feet
Old prays soon my maker I'll meet
Youth is fleeting, Old knows this
Remember youngster youth is bliss
Lu'
03/08/13

Holidays

Holidays

BUSY for some
HARRIED for some
COSTLY for some
OVER INDULGENT for some
FUN FILLED for some
FRIEND FILLED for some
WARM AND COZY for some
QUITE for some
PEACEFUL for some
INTROSPECTIVE for some
COLD for some
LONELY for some
PAINFUL for some
WANTING most

Lu' 12/24/12

Merry Christmas

Age appropriate

Monday, September 24, 2012

 

Lips closed
Screams within unheard
Saddened by age aging and the aged
Time robs
Cries
Time gives to much
Cries
God believes in me
Screams within silent heard
Parents parent child hurt
The stench of it all
Lu'

vist to Pops 9/23/12

Today

waking was slow in coming

meow meow

hear lengthened claws click clack

clutter strewn table cleaned

cold water pills await
keys pat pockets lift clutter keys

raining gently sauna

opinion belly up seconds

sinus wall o' brick



Lu' 9/18/12