My current reality

Good morning, will it be or won't it?
Rise slowly safer that way
Pain, your constant, has not left you today
For just an instant you hope it has chosen to abandon you
Ever faithful ever faithful, f*@ker!
"Not the girl I used to be"  "I've got to learn my new limitations

SF
7/1/2017

Melanoma

LA LA LA LA LA...
Life goes on melodically
Daily goods and bads but all do-able, do be do be do-able
Shower, towel off, inspect
Hmm what's that mark?  New? NEW?!
Look LOOK inspect dissect magnify illuminate
Pancic
Note it log it date it WAIT
MELODY STOPS .
Ever thinking of, looking at, worrying about, wondering if
2 weeks a lifetime
Hmm better call an expert
No worries OR we better biopsy
Floor drops out from under,  room is suddenly just a little smaller
WAIT!
Phone rings.  Hello this is Dr Dermatologist's office
Pause - - - - - - - - -
The biopsy came back, it is melanoma
Fades to black.  WHAT STAGE! what stage? What stage is IT?
and so it goes

Lu'
6-08-2016

BITCH

BITCH
B-ottle cap ready to blow
I-nching toward the abyss
T-aking it's toll
C-an't can't can't
H-anging on by a thread or so it seems
BITCH, maybe it's not as simple as that!

Lu'
9-4-2014

Life lost

Sad for a life lost yet never really had
Yet better still!
Longing so desperately needing
Sad cry crying stares into the distance
Pins and needles hammer to fall
Sound saddens balancing precipice
God hear me heal him hear me
Hours lengthen hasten time not
Calendar days one then next
Time to tell a story none yet fleshed
Sad for a life lost yet never really had
Yet better still!
Lu
5/25/2014

Tommy 's struggle

Sung to the tune of Blue eyes cryin' in the rain

In my mind I see him always
Brown eyes searching through the pain
When he moans I feel so helpless
Hands tied ever and again

Fighting daily is his battle
Desperate trying to regain
Motions we all take for granted
Brown eyes searching through the pain

Hopeful someday rounds the corner
Hand in hand we walk away
Scars unseen run deep remaining
Brown eyes searching through the pain
Lu'
5/22/2014

Empathy

April 2014, ‘twas not keen not keen

Empathize schmempathize does it matter DOES IT

Blessing or bother which are you eh?

Are you just an ass?  Imposing? Iinterloping?

Empathize schmempathize does it matter DOES IT

Is it just the mean man, mean man, mean man; mouse

Kindness toward strangers, gentleness follows; pain disavows

Taking me for granted; take me for granite

Loves me! Likes me; wonders or tolerates best

Projecting not protecting needed still

Distance, shell beckons; slip back, fall back, sink

Empathize schmempathize does it matter DOES IT

Question it.  Thank you seldom follows

 

Lu’

4-22-2014

 

 

He wrote a song

...he wrote a song don't you know
A song titled Afterglow
He wrote a song don't you know
The man known as Bondo
He wrote a song don't you know
Kinda folksy and mellow
He wrote a song don't you know
Heck I'm proud of the fellow
He wrote a song don't you know
That Bondo, my Bro'
He wrote a song don't you know
I smile in the afterglow of a song titled Afterglow
He wrote a song don't you know...

Lu' 07/02/13